Living•A•Lie

My eyes looking at you....

2005-02-11T04:39:00.000-08:00

Chatting with? Amir and Mike
Current nick? ƒitriƒarina™ what if i fade away? .ilu.
Listening to? Solitude- Evanescence

I'm blogging. Yeah. Haha. Basically i have nothing much to say. I went to watch Electra with Amir and had dinner together on sunday. Had fun. haha. Then on monday lessons as usual. English sss was cancelled. Damn happy. Can go home early. Then on tuesday it was half day since its Chinese New Year Eve. After that went to Orchard with Mike, Melissa and Khai. Had ton of fun. I was rather quiet that day. Wasn't in the mood to talk. Not that la. Alot of things running through my mind. Sorry if i was being so moody that day. They went to watch movie but i had to go back for my 'reunion dinner'. So i practically sleep at my grandma's house. The next day went to visit someone. Was bored like hell. Begged my mom to go home. Went home then did nothing but rot infront of the pc. On thursday did nothing. Went to meet Amir to give the malay stuff. den reach home at around five. Talk on the phone with Fahtin. Didn't do much. Then did some homework *yeah, i'm proud* Today had school as usual. Then chemistry kinda fun coz the teacher is not around. Funess. Reading a nice book. About losers. Nice. Haha. Then after that friggin guides, Amir walked me home. Thanks darling. Haha. I'm positively mad. I know. haha. Thats all folks. Seeya around. Stay rocking. Haha

And if i breathe, knowing that you won't care.

2005-01-28T05:08:00.000-08:00

Hello there. I'm tired, bored and honestly confused. Who the hell cares? I got guides today and i finished really late. Really really late. Its like 6.30 or something. It was killing me. Then shida didn't wait for me. So "nice" of her. So Amir waited for me. Yeah. Then he send me home and all. Then reached home, bathed and went online after that. I'm pretty tired. I didn't sleep well last night. Simpler said, I slept late. I was like dozing of during chemistry. That Ramesh and his black and white powerpoint. I want more colours. I'm a very visual person. Haha. yeah...

I'm sleepy but i refuse to sleep. This sucks. I'm feeling something but i don't know what it is. Yeah. I'm feeling grey, yeah.

You won't cry for my absence, I know

You forgot me long ago

Am I that unimportant

Am I so insignificant

Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice

You won't try for me, not now

Though I'd die to know you love me

I'm all alone

Isn't someone missing me?

- Missing

That is only used for thinking.

2005-01-21T18:47:00.000-08:00

'Till the last flower dies.'

I hate writing short entries. Thats why i havent been updating. I'm having flu. The competition in Ngee Ann poly was boring. We didnt win. No surprises. The only fun part was that i skipped the entire day of school. Shida, Amir and Stephen came after math triple s. Thanks guys. Love you guys so much. They saved me from boredom. Anyway, they tore the entire banner i made. Heartache. On the day, the court shoes were like slicing my skin on my foot. It hurts. Steve went off with Feline which leaves me, shida and amir. We were talking crap. Went home with shida but got dinner before it.

Later i'm going out with Shida and Amir to Orchard. Intially Shida couldn't go coz she was suppose to go out with Charles or something. There are a few reasons why i wanna go orchard. Firstly the singapore soccer team will be there. Wait till amir hear about this. He'll groan. Second, to get that friggin amir's birthday present. I didnt sound angsty coz i'm not in the mood to. Until then.

Catch Me

2005-01-06T05:13:00.000-08:00

Hey.

Didnt write for a long time. Im not writing a long entry so im putting points instead.

*New girl in my class, formerly RGS.
*Change a whole line of teachers which is not normal for a graduating class.

Ms Lena Soh- Form Teacher
Mr Ramesh- Chemistry
Ms Soh- Eng
Mrs Chan or formerly known as Ms Tan- Humanities

*On the first day we had to write an essay which includes our resolutions. I sounded nuts. Really. Lots of joke. Cynical jokes. Haha.
*I'm bringing small thermal bottle to fill my coffee in it. I almost fell asleep in literature. And i'm serious.
*Try not to laugh everytime i see the word DUREX vandalised on Amir's table infront of me.Its huge and multicolored.
*I now understand physics. YAY!
*Try not to look confuse. I cannot not look confuse. Its how i look.
*I was so touchy-feely today.
*I was screaming at people's ears today. Had fun. And yeah. I shouted at my juniors. Ooooo...That was even more fun.
*Sahibul was so enthusiastic in malay class today. Darn, it was funny.
*Ezza said "Lets start a new chapter." (in life...Get it?) I laughed. It was funny.
*Marcus was being a lame mofo' today. I mean, as usual.
*See, i told u i sound cynical.
*Class execs are elected today. I'm the first aider along with stephen (I'm qualified OKAY!) and the notice board thingy. I dont wanna do that one. Really hate it.
*Our class had our own donations thing. Not with the school. Its only our class. It will not be given to the sch to be passed to the red cross. Desmond donated $100 from his own allowance. I was so touched. I salute him.

Well thats all about it. Cya when i cya. Until Then...

[LP] What a year?!

2004-12-22T23:11:00.000-08:00

"Hell, I love all of you!"

Hey.

Sorry haven't been writting for so long. Not that i've been busy or what but my pc is experiencing problems. Got some virus floating around. I've been lazing around this holidays. I mean there's nothing much to do but homework and i'm not exactly the homework doing kinda girl. Watched alot of dvds. Boring afternoon. Going to tuition later. I wanna skip it. Ditching it but i know it won't work.

I'm not exactly happy. I'm a depressed as ever. I haven't been doing my yearly reflections. That sucks seeing that i'm left with one weeks before school reopens. Nothing changed. I'm still me and the rest of the people are still them, if you know what i mean. If you don't, i'm not bothered to explain. Go figure out yourself.

I'm not going to be all yearbook on this but it sure will sound like one. Year 2004 has been a bitter-sweet year. Friend fought and then made up. School is worse seeing that we have alot of test. Homeworks left undone. Screaming teachers, crying teachers. Even teachers who called us bunch of monkeys and not what a standard 3E1 class would do. We will be best remembered for becoming the worst-best class ever. I enjoyed the times. The confusing meetings we have at the back of the class which includes gossips and also not forgetting playing ngage when the teacher was, afterall, teaching. The friendship we created. The bond we had with one another. When one is in trouble, the rest helps. We cried together, and hell we sabotaged one another but all in the name of fun.Its not everyday we can be like this. After next year, we might, well not see each other as all of us are heading to persue whatever. Friendship then, will be strained. The once jokey, playful times we had were gone. Rest assured, treasure the last year we have next year and wish you guys all the best for your O levels.

F.Farina

[LP] Happy BBB Day

2004-12-02T06:50:00.000-08:00

Hey.

I'm having my first
aid exam tomorrow to be a qualified first aider. Its stupid and stuff. I'm
hating it. I have no problems with the bandage and stuff but when it comes to
the CPR. Gawd, i'll get nervous and forget everything. I have to pass. I payed
big bucks for this. But i don't seem to get the hang of it. Yesterday me, mks,
June and Amir were talking on msn together and Amir and Mks was getting horny.
They were arguing about who's was more horny. Mks was denyin everything. Then Mk
and June left. Then Amir said this...

[12:54:41 AM]
:.-[AmiR]-.:: all i want to do is to have SEX

I was like laughing.
He was being so horny at midnight. Then i left him. When he gets horny, It's
gonna be bad....I left him after that...haha...Anyway....

Happy Birthday Brad!!! Heh!

Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.Brad.BradBrad.Brad.Brad.Brad.

I love him. Happy
birthday Brad. He's so cute. There was this one time when this LP fan
played Faint with Brads guitar. And the fan was good. Brad sat one corner and
grinned. That grinned made me melt. He looks like an angel when he smiles. He
has the nices smile ever. If i have to write a 3000 word essay about them i
prolly do it well. haha...Well, Until Then, Cya when i Cya.....

[LP]I've got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one

2004-11-30T05:23:00.000-08:00

Hey.

I came back from camp
today. I was pretty tired. It was shitty. Lucky i'm back home. It was itchy.
There were alot of mosquitos. Now I'm so tanned. I went for kayaking and it was
fun. Did alot of capsize drill. Heh. I'M ITCHING all OVER. I took cab home. I
sent one of my junior home then asked the driver to drive to my block. I was
sticky, stinky and dirty. I bathed then used my computer. Its been a long time.
At least long for me. I got good news!

I've got my COLLISION
COURSE!!!!!!YEAH. I'm so happy. I almost can't get it. Long story but i'm tellin
anyway.

[Girl Singing]
Ladies and gentlemen,
put our hands
together for the astonishing...

Yeah...
[Mike]

Welcome Ladies
and Gentlemen
to the eight wonder of the world.
The flow of the century,
oh it’s timeless… Hove!
Thank you for coming out tonight.
You could've
been anywhere in the world, but
you're here with us.
We appreciate that…
Uuunhh…

I went to Music
Junction instead of HMV coz its cheaper there. I went there. I finally founded
CC. I looked at it excitedly. Then I saw at the corner. "NC16". I was shocked.
It means "No children under 16". I was like so nervous. Then i stood there for a
long time. Then I sucked in my breath and muttered "All for you LP". Then i
went to the counter. It happened that there was some shoplifter. The cashier
wasn't payin attention and just scanned it and i payed for it. She didn't even
ask for my ID. Then Mks decided to buy a copy. Then i took a copy and went to
the cashier for the second time. But this time she asked me for my ID. The i
answered "Erm sorry. I didn't bring along mine." The she was like "Sorry. You
have to come again next time." That bitch. Ergh, she didnt even let me off. I
got mine but Mks didn't. She was sulking.

I'm tired. This isn't
much but i really have to go sleep. Until Then....Cya when i
cya....

[LP] Lost It All

2004-11-26T03:53:00.000-08:00

Hey.

I haven't been writting for a long time. I wasn't at
home. So here's an update...

23rd Nov

I woke up early hoping to catch Mike on LPC but
unfortunately it did not happened. Then i went to Zarifah's house to get the
chickens for the bbq. Haha. Then met Mks at my void deck. Met June at the
interchange. Reached the beach last. Kai was video cam-ing the whole
thing. We haven't even start the bbq when it rained. Then MK, June, desmond and
me went cycling in the rain. The rest were in the shelter and all of 'em looked
dead. So we, the crazy and fun people went cycling in the rain. We were speeding
when June fell. The we came back. Kai helped her put some stuff on it and used
this other stuff. It was transparent. The antiseptic plus her blood looked like
mayonaise plus ketchup. Yucks. Ms Pang came. She bought those fire crakers
stuff. Then some of the guys were making rocket outta that. Funny and very
unsuccessful.Hah! i reached home at around 12 plus. Near 1am. The bbq was
'funner' than i expected.

The few days ago

-Nothing intresting, seriously-

Today

Went to watch The Incredibles. Wanted to get a few guitar
picks BUT there wasn't much time. The Incredibles was good. Jack Jack is
adorable. Haha. I love Violet 's power. Cool. Haha. I've been wanting to watch
that movie since the 17th. Ahhh...cuteness.....Collision Course is out on the
29th nov here. Woohoo...lucky me... Until Then, Cya when i Cya........I won;t be
on net on the 27th to the 30th nov

[LP] For one last time, make some noise...

2004-11-20T09:03:00.000-08:00

Hey.

Its midnight now. I'm still not sleepy yet. I went to
pick up my sis from school two hours ago coz her teacher organised this field
trip to Victoria Hall for a concert. I didn't do much today. A while ago my lil
sis fren came over for a sleep over. I can handle two giggling girls but three?
No way. They are now having a pillow fight. My sis friend was amazed when she
found out i play the guitar. Haha. Little kids.

I'm listening to 'All about loving you' by Bon Jovi. Its
been long since i listen to it. Jon Bon Jovi is HOT. Especially when he is
shirtless. This is such a sappy song. But its a nice sappy song. Better change
the song before i get all mushed up inside. Shit next is The Reason and its no
different.

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded
memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots
and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've
been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me
how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

I don't know where i left my book of poems/lyrics. Thats
the book that i bring around if i have the urge to write a poem or a song. Gawd
i better find it before it gets lost. Mike will be coming on the LP chat on the
22th...Yay. Haha. I'll will only be looking. I wont post anything. LPU 4.0
will be coming out end of this week and i'm joining sometime in january. I'm
currently broke. I'm not writting much...Until then, Cya when i
Cya.....

[LP] Acoooostick lol

2004-11-17T23:28:00.000-08:00

My poem for today...haha and my title was and inside joke that i had with Mks on the fone juz now. Har har....Anyway, enjoy the poem..

As I look out my window at this world which seems
As though...
It’s never really learned of my existance
(Maybe ’cause I’ve lived in the shadows for all my life)
I doubt everything I thought was true
I doubt almost everyone who ever said they gave the slightest shit about me
I don’t see a purpose in my own existance any longer
I don’t see a meaning...
No one could ever care for something like me
I seem to find myself causing everyone else’s misery
Maybe it’s from them having to look upon my horrid face
Or just from the fact that they know inside...
I was God’s only mistake

[LP] And that Samick bass is all mine...

2004-11-17T08:15:00.000-08:00

Hey there. I didn't write
yesterday. Lazy and tired. Reached home at around nine at night. Bought the
bass. Yay. But i didn't get the black one. I bought the sunburst color which is
much nicer. Haha. Feeling rather happy.

Yesterday

Went to Orchard. Went to the
converse store to get Shida's sneakers but at last didn't purchase it. Went to
Lido and watched Shark's tale. Funny movie. Spent like half of the time watching
the movie. Bought a huge bag of popcorns, salted and two coke since there was no
Dr Pepper. It was funny. Lenny is a vegetarian shark. He sounds sissy but
cute. Then went over to Davis and bought the Samick bass. Quite nice. The last
piece omg. But luckily i bought earlier then scheduled. Went to Heerens. The
load on my shoulder was quite heavy but it was more of pleasure. Haha. Bought 5
bucks worth of candies. It was alot. Gummy worms, gummy bears and lots of other
stuff. Took the MRT and reached home at around nine plus.

Today

Went to school in tee and jeans to
collect Shida's IC. Then went to Jurong Point. Wanted to catch sneak previews of
The Incredibles but they didn't have it. Then had lunch there. Walked around.
Pretty much didn't do anything. Went to Northpoint. Played Time Crisis 3. Haha.
15 year old but still behaved like little kids. Went to Shida's house to get the
book 'The Clique' by Lisi Harrison. Quite good so far. Reached home at around
1915. Thats all i guess.

Someone sent me this love song. It
was nice and all. Its not your typical love song. But it was nice alright.
Listening to 'Letters to you' by Finch. Not bad.This is from my MSN chat
log....17/11

[08:26:00
PM] Me: Where have you been for so long!
[08:26:27 PM] Him: Why? Did ya miss
me?
[08:26:30 PM] Me: No frigging way. I was just bored alone.
[08:26:40 PM] Him: oh...haha

_____________________________________________________________________________________

"When a particular guy flirts
with a girl very
often,
a girl would start thinking the guy likes her.
So
if
you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the
smiles and
stare."

______________________________________________________________________________________

I got that from
somewhere...haha...word of caution. Until Then, cya when i
cya.

[LP] You are the victims of your own addictions

2004-11-15T07:40:00.000-08:00

Yeah i got a little cash on myself to spend. Finally. Been waiting for so
long. Got alittle pissed nowadays. Ya know all those kids who are like rock fans
but they like it for like the label. Like "Hey i'm a rock chick. Look how rugged
i'am. See my band shirts. See, i'm bigger than you." Like that kind of stuff.
Its not the music to them. Its the icon. I hate them. They know nothing about
rock. And they give themselves names like "Emo kid" *No offence to some of the
emo kids in sch. I mean those in the other schs*. Draw the line. I mean they buy
what they call "Emo specs" WTF is that? Ahhh this kind of people. Killing
me.

Some people aren't happy that i hate Ashlee Simpson like hell. I mean i hate
her and she's a fcking prep. Look at her songs and remember she lip-sync during
one of the shows. Man, which REAL artist would do that? She's a fake. It doesn't
help that her album advert comes out every two seconds on the tv and like little
kids like my sis is singing her songs. I brainwashed my sis and thankfully she
continued shouting breaking the habit like nobody's business. There was one
time i ripped an Ashlee Simpson poster i found in school and this girl was like
saying "My heart hurts when you ripped that" and she looked like she wanna
cry.

Anyway, i've got better and less depressing news. I'm making this big

Linkin Park Won An Award at the American Music Award. Yay. I watched it live
on tv. For the first time the channel did something nice for me. Chester and Mr
Hahn went and accepted the award. I love every minute of it apart from the part
where Chester kissed Samantha and Mr Hahn kissed that blonde bitch.
Haha...as usual. Oh ya, I'm buying this but it'll be alittle different. Its
gonna be all black. Can wait to draw on it...haha...

Until Then, Cya when i Cya....

[LP] remember the times, together we swore

2004-11-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

"You
know what Andre? I can't use a green pick with a green wall!"- Brad
Delson

Hey there!!! Didn't
write for like two to three days. I can't seem to go od.com nowadays. I think
its because of that fcking spyware thing. Its infecting my computer. Stupid
thing. Today i woke up at 8.45 am. Played the computer while watching cartoon.
Sunday cartoons sucks. Watched 7th Heaven and threw stuff at the tv everytime
Ashlee Simpson came out. Stupid shit. Then went out of the house at around 1pm.
Went to Causeway point with Mks. Bought my shoes and then decided to watch The
Princess Diaries2. Nice movie. Like it alot. Funny. The part which this Lionel
said "Eagle is flying" loudly and the part where this "Genovian" guy was singing
in chinese. Funny...haha... Movie finished. Went to Metro, bpught my sis their
spray pens and stuff. Then walked around. Went to one of the music shops and
bought two Ernie Ball guitar picks. One light blue and the other is white.
Nice. Was quite happy after that...haha

"still feels like the first time
to stand here by your
side
together regardless
we'll walk through the darkness
still feels
like the first day of my life"

Then went home
and rot once more...haha. Nice. Feeling bored. Having school tomorrow. No
homework for once. Thank god. Short entry...sorry....Until Then, I'm outta
here.....

[LP] And i don't love you anymore.I'am....

2004-11-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

Darn it man...I'm so pissed. I mean whats the use of
listenin to his preaching, grumbling, blah blah blah? Its fucking wasting my
time. Taking me for granted. Hell, i enjoy his company and all but man, i do
have feelings. Not that i like him or anything. I felt like taken for granted.
That guy won't know what strikes him if i didn't talk to him. Stupid dude....You
know the thingy on top? I did that during me 'Fessed UP' period just
now.

Stupid dude. Why don't he look for those slutty biatches?
Some people might know what i mean......stupid shit

Anyway, i watched MTV Celebrity Deathmatch yesterday and
it was darned funny. Kenny G vs Flea of Red Hot Chili Peppers. Funny like hell.
Haha. I can't help laughing. Got class just now. End up talking with the guys. I
also watched Romeo Must Die. Nice movie. Jet Li and Aaliyah. Ah....I love that
movie. So erm....nice? Haha...Jet Li is cool. I'm watching Notting Hill tonight.
I love Hugh Grant. I'm feeling crappy.

And people who asked me why i didnt talk just now, i mean
in MSN, Look for my explanation in paragraph one....

Jade where's the address?Haha

[LP] Bow down and stare in wonder...

2004-10-31T07:04:00.000-08:00

'What it
ment to be will eventually be a memory of a time'

Finally exams are over. Thank god.
Away from the stress. No more school except for our batch which are taking GSE
'O' Levels next year. Damn. Next year will be a horror.

Got my results and i got to 4
Express next year. Thank god. I mean i was scared to death waiting for my
results. Then we got out reports for this year and guess what my teacher said in
it?

"Excellent conduct. Keep up the good work and continue to work
hard. She has artistic talents and is good in drawing."

I'm not sure about the first bit
coz i had done badly but i love the second one. I guess she noticed my doodling
on her worksheets. She kept scolding me for it but i can't help drawing.
Haha...

I was obsessed with time
All I know, time
was just slipping away and I watch the count down until the end of the
day
Watch that watched me and the words that I say thet echoe of the clock
rythem in my veins

I'm bored to hell. I should be
watching CSI now. I love them. My addictions. It drives Amir crazy. Whaha...I
will go on and on about CSI and not forgetting Linkin Park. Love doing that. I
wanna go sign up for LPU 4.0. Its not out yet. I hope the shirt is as nice as
3.0's. Collision Course Player is out. Go to Jade's diary for the link. I'm too
lazy to link it up. Typical lazy me. I saw my form teacher's blog. Her english
is good. Oh ya i aced my english paper. Not good but its alright.Its the
Halloween weekend...Did nothin...I don't celebrate it but its cool...Tons of
scary movie on tv which are not exactly scary. I thought of watching The Grudge
but i watched the Japanese original version and it is alot more scarier. The
Ring is good....Scared the hell outta me.

Eating-
Apple Pie

Enough of those movie. I think
sometime next week, i wanna go watch The Princess Diaries 2. I heard its good.
Its out on the 4th of november. Late huh? The thing is i dunno who i want to
watch it with. Shida can't go out on weekends coz her folks aren't home,
working and she needs to prepare dinner. I'll think of
someone...

Feeling-
Sick, all the coughing and sneezing...

I heard alot of wierd names
nowadays......Novemder is one of them....Wierd huh? My name is considered wierd
to some people....Some people said its cool. Haha...Always get reprimended from
my teacher for writing my name as Fit3 instead of Fitri. Haha....

Until then....Im outta
here....

See that plaited thing at the top left
corner, it was my school skirt....

[LP] Everybody's fool

2004-10-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

Everytime i had a very close friendship with someone, after around a year, it will be destroyed and we'll go around acting like we don't even know each other. Its like we never talked before. Last time, we knew each other as if we were brothers and sisters. We knew each other right till the finest detail like how we talk, how we act and what our habits are. The pain of ending a friendship like that hurts me more than a breakup. But no one knows that do they? They go around making things up about you thus destroying your friendship.

I couldn't care less. I don't let those stuff get me down. I love me friends like i love my own self. If you know my friends, they'll tell you that i care more about my friends than my own. Yeah it kills me when an ignited fire burns off when there wasn't even a wind. And i'm not talking about between females. I mean guys...they are a difficult species. We need to know how they think and how to console them when they are down. Guys don't like when people keep saying "Are you ok?" over and over again.

I don't call myself an expert about guys but those are my point of views. If you don't like it then lay off. I don't wanna waste my time arguing about my views to people. Different humans have different perceptions and opinions.

I wasted hundreds of hours just listening to their whinings and what do people call me? A flirt. A flirt am i? They dunno a shit about me and go around sprouting nonsence. So is listenin to people whine qualifies me to being a flirt? I think they got their vocabs mixed up. Set you priorities right. Think...

This was just some random thoughts of mine.....No offence...

[LP] What the f*ck do i have to say?

2004-10-24T06:12:00.000-07:00

"Its suppose to be Meaty-ora right?" Doug(Hoobastank) asked
Chester

I slept alot
today. Did nothing. Was tired. I didn't even go online until now. Heard about
the album Linkin Park collaborated with Jay-Z a couple of days ago. I mean how
will they album sound like??? Linkin Park songs are hella good as usual but what
about Jay-Z's? Mks has this strong thing about not buying the cd coz she
despises hip-hop. Me too but i'll buy the album. Anyway, the album cover is
nice. I try to get the picture. Give me a min. I think i know where its
is.

Drinking: Strawberry Milk

Listenin To: Breaking Benjamin- So cold

Here is the
album cover. Its nice apart from the word Jay-Z. Bleagh. Tearing me
inside. Haha. I had an LPTV marathon for 2 hrs. I watched all 70 episodes. That
was refreshing. It was cool tho. From Projekt Revolution I to SS to Metora World
Tour I to PR II to MWT II. And Linkin Park developed their fan base. Talking
about developing their fan base, LPU 3.0 has only one month to go and the next
LPU is starting and i want to sign up for that. I missed the 3.0 so i'm signing
up the next one.

"show me how it ends it's alright
show me how defenseless you
really are
satisfied and empty inside
well that's alright
let's give
this another try"

Breaking Benjamin- So cold

Okie dokie. Wanna get
some sleep...cya when i cya...

[LP]A small confession, I think I'm starting to lose it...

2004-10-22T21:02:00.000-07:00

I love today. I have no training and Mks skipped her training. Talking to
this guy i met at Linkin Park Concert now. Was bored. Watching cartoon.
Hmmm...Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. I love that cartoon. Funny at times.
Didn't update for a while now. My computer is lagging. Damn it. All Amir did
when i told him was laugh and told me to compressmy files. I don't wanna do
anythin to my comp afraid it would become like my old one. So yeah maybe i'll
ask my dad to call my cousin to fix this thing.

Listening To: Adema ft Chester- Giving
In

Listened to some Grey Daze and Chester's voice isn't as nice as it is in
Linkin Park. Anyways, the news about getting fined if we download Kazaa came out
in the papers a few days ago. Oh Hell. I've been using Kazaa for as long as i
remember. Its good, its fast. All my friends are switching to something else.
I'll stay with Kazaa. Mks didn't use Kazaa, she uses Morpheus since her computer
was upgraded. In my opinion, Morpheus is damn slow and has limited songs as
compare to Kazaa.

Eating: Oreo and Chocolate Milk

Exams are over and yesterday was our promotion day. I need to get promoted.
I'm so nervous. Well, Ezza asked me whether i'm nervous but i shrugged it off.
I'm nervous. Hoped that the teachers say good things about me which is tough coz
i never behave in class. Damn it. SHould have listened to my mom. Be a good kid.
I got 20/30 for my english essay. Damn it. Its just not up to my standard. It
doesn't help that my mom's a teacher. Thank god not in my school nor in my
level.

Watching; Gundam Seed which i hate so
much.

My parents aren't gonna be home today. They are going to the wedding dinner
of my dad's friend. Yeah. So i'm eating dinner with my sisters and my mom's
ordering pizza. Today i'll do the honour of choosing the topping. Hmmm...what
shall i have? I'll think of that later. So me and my sisters are partyinnnnggggg
at home since our folks ain't home.

Keep it inside, the image portrayed.
As
if I couldn't stand losing, as if I couldn't be safe, no way.
A small
confession, I think I'm starting to lose it. I think
I'm drifting away from
the people I really need.
A small reflection of when we were younger.
We
had it all figured cause we had everything covered.
And now we're older. It's
getting harder to see what this future
is holding.
What the fuck are we
going to be.
Still Frame- Trapt

Oh yeah, Jade I still haven't got your email...

Cya when i Cya......Hahn Outta Here

[LP] When you feel down. i feel...

2004-10-19T03:50:00.000-07:00

Reached home at
around 2 plus. Had 11th period. Bought cd to burn songs. As usual. If i have to
go to jail for something, i would go for downloading songs ilegally. But i love
'em and can't stop doing it. Haha. Even Mike Shinoda approve of it coz they
themselves download songs even though they have money to buy tons of cds.

Everyone was being a
bitch. I don't know why. Maybe PMS day or something. There was this girl at
friendster.com who was bitching about goths and bass and all the other stuff i
like, like Linkin Park. I mean wassup with her??? It just angers me. The irony
is that she wants to play bass but insulting it? I just don't understand her.
Being so focked up. I don't even know her. She's just one focked up stranger
from planet toot. She's a bloody prep acting goth, wanna play bass and insulting
all of those stuff. It just doesn't click in my mind. She befriends with this
group of prep-ers who called theirselves "Girl Anarchronism". What the fock is
that?! She was like "girl bands are good". I was like, erm do you see any girl
band which are legends? I dunno where she put her senses. I've gone over my
daily swearing rate. Har Har.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I
can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But
I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken
up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you
know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my
only one
I let go, there's just no one
that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

-Only One,
Yellowcard

I read Jade's entry
about her computer and the worms and the viruses. AND HER METEORA CD. Oh man, if
it happens to me, i'll cry my eyes out. I feel so sorry for her. Btw
Amanda, Jade, give me you addresses. I feel like sending you guys something.
Something "Singapore-ish"? Haha....Haven't decide yet. But send me via
email, ya?

And one more thing,
LINKIN PARK IS THE BOMB!!!! *I can't help but saying that :)"

Love you
guys........

[LP] I was forced to run, with you mocking me

2004-10-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

This will be a quick one coz my fuck up sis is so fuck up. Anyway, Mks decided that she wanna go poly with me and take the same course as me which is wierd coz she is always the one intrested in those sciences thingy and i'm the arty one. It'll be so cool. I have a friend i can hang out with. The question is that either i get in or not.

I HAVE A FUCK UP LIFE AND HATING IT

I tried so hardAnd got so farBut in the endIt doesn't even matterI had to fallTo lose it allBut in the endIt doesn't even matter

[LP] "Joe, do you need all those straws?!"

2004-10-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how i didn't even survive without internet the whole day
till now. Did an avatar for my frienster thing. Try signing up man...Its
cool...www.friendster.com

Listened to the new song i downloaded. A decade under the Influence-Taking
Back Sunday. Its great but the backup vocallist sound wierd that i wanna crack
up. I didn't do much today but my body is aching. Helped some people with High
Element. Its actuall a rope about three stories high and people were suppose to
walk through it. Cool but scary though. I had to calm some people down.
Kinda like Fear Factor. I dunno why but i love America's Next Top Model. Like
seeing them suffer when they never excersize before. Cool. Dying from
boredom. Exams ended,,,I need to make it to next year. Oh man...the pain of
waiting for my results.

Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
We used to
be this dying breed
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling
about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and
close to the window...
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling
about...

[LP] Tattoos of Memories

2004-10-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...what happened this past few days....

Wednesday

Had chemistry paper. Then after that sat at the canteen
and discussed about the 4e/5n farewell. They were short of a bassist and June
asked me to play. No way was i going to play in front of the school...no no
no...she kept begging me. In the end she gave up...

Thursday

Didn't went to school coz i had no exam papers. But have
to memorise those damned poems for the literature exam. Caught 8 Simple Rules of
Dating my Teenage Daughter on tv. Watched awhile then at night watched Charmed.
The bomb man. I end up not studying. I had a hell lot of stuff to study in the
morning. Watched CSI. Got addicted to that series since june.

Today

In the morning went to school alone. Mks paper starts at
10am while mine was at 8am. So she got to sleep more. Not fair. Then i found out
who Melissa was. This junior in my school. Pretty cool junior. Wanted to save
the poem i wrote here but i have no idea where i placed the paper. If i found it
i save it here or something.

And One

Where should I start
Disjointed heart
I've got no
commitment
To my own flesh and blood
Left all alone
Far from my
home
No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I
Keep it locked up
inside
Cannot express
To the point I've regressed
If anger's a gift,
then I guess I've been blessed, I

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my
distance from your lies

It's too late to love me now
You have never
showed me
It's too late to love me now
You don't even know
me

Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my
blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking
you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find
release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking
a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring
me peace

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your
lies
Spit drips from the jaw of the witless witness
Cryptic colloquialism
shifts your midrift
Dark all I do embark the shadows
Involved with my
thought catalog, analogue, rap catalog
Keep my distance, and fear resistance,
hurt by persistance
The twisted web of tangled lies
Strangles my hope to
waste and numbs the taste
And I'm forced to face these hate crimes
Against
the state of being
Feeling the weight- less -ness pressed between the
ceiling
Reeling around room
Riding a bubble of sound proof
It's the
frequency making you
S-Shake with every boom
Involuntary muscle
contraction
Ignoring and drinking musical gas fume euphoria
The sound
pounds to make the dead flush
To have you a head rush with red thoughts and
said stuff

[LP] Swamped- Lacuna Coil

2004-10-10T01:34:00.000-07:00

I had chocolate chip pancake this morning. Yum...Went to sunday class, then my friend gave me this wierd recipe for fruit salad. She's a f&n student and she said that it tasted great. It was the dressing for the salad. Mayonnaise plus condensed milk. Sounds yucky right? I dunno but i'm gonna try.

Talked on MSN with Melissa and Mks. Was bored. Was stoning when Stephen IM me asking for a favor. He asked my to download MLTR song for him. In another thousand years i'll do that.I've been wanting to write this for a loooooong time so here it is....

My Wish List
+Get into 4 express next year*I would sacrifice my bass for this*
+I WANT MY BASS GUITAR!!!
+New handphone*I dont mind not getting this*
+The DC shoe that Mike designed
+That damn Famous Stars and Stripes tee-shirt which I thought of buying last month which can blow my 45 bucks.

Having my chemistry paper tomorrow....wish my luck and lots of love...LMFAO...cya when i cya

[LP] Then Face All This Pain Here All Alone

2004-10-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

Weellooo guys...Had my maths paper in the morning...It was "oh my god, i don't know how to explain". It was horrible. I hate it. 4.5 hours of pure torture and it was damn cold. I'm so tired. Well, i'm tired all the time. I felt better than how i felt yesterday.

I still have to study chemistry coz my exam's on monday. Exams sucks...I miss my old school mate from primary school. I mean i saw them yesterday and i kinda miss them. I remembered how nerdy i was when i was young. They kinda helped me through. I lost some of my contacts. Miss them alot. Amanda's in girl scout and guess what? So am I. Thats why i went Scotland a month ago because of some camp and had to sort of represent my country. Talked to some American girl scouts and my first impression was "Whoa" they are so friendly and loud in a good way. I was so damn shy and wasn't like myself. lol. My mom's forcing me to study....Love you guys....

[LP] I create my own madness

2004-10-08T03:00:00.000-07:00

Had my physics exam....It was difficult. I'm so stressed. I feel like crying. I did my social studies exam and it was difficult coz i forgotten all the dates. Oh man...i felt terrible. My marks will affect my life. I don't wanna go normal academic coz i worked so hard to achieve where i'am now. I don't want to retain either. It kills me to see all my hardwork go to waste. Wish i could turn back time and start all over again...but i know it will never come true. My life's a bitch. My geography teacher didnt even passed me when i got 49.6 and only need 0.06 marks. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........

God Help Me....

[LP] Who knows my life was supoose to be that instead?

2004-10-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

Opendiary is not working again…damn!!!Anyway, I just wanna tell you guys about my interesting discovery. I ‘am not who I’ am that I thought I’m. Well here it goes…

When I was young, my mom ever told me that her last boyfriend before my dad was someone whose name starts with the letter ‘A’ coz she showed me this necklace of hers that has the letter ‘A’ on it I was young and dumb and not to forget naïve. I kinda remembered it till I’m a teenager…I mean now. So I was mugging just now and my mom wad teaching my sissy science. I was reading my social studies book then we started talking about the king of Brunei and how he look like a frog. LOL. Then I was into the issue that students in Brunei need not pay for their education. Then my mom said that if not we will be living in Brunei. Then I was like really. I mean that would be cool. Then she said cautiously that I wouldn’t look like how I’am now. Then I realized that she almost got married to her ex-boyfriend. I was like shocked…I bet my dad didn’t know about this..Oh man and her ex-boyfriend was a Brunei citizen….almost got married is a big thing…Oh man…..I’m feeling the aftershock-ness….If not now I’ll be living in Brunei having a totally different life…..

[LP] The World is Cold

2004-10-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

WoooHooo...Long time since i wrote an entry. I'm so tired. 2 paper
done 5 more to go. I still have to study. I have no time to lose.

Social studies and physics * Friday
8/10/04

Mathematics * Saturday 9/10/04 (who in the
right mind ask us to do exams on saturdays???)

Chemistry * Monday 11/10/04

Geography and Additional maths * 12/10.04 (I
assure youmaths is created by satan!!!)

No paper on wednesday so that means NO
SCHOOL!!!WoooHoo

Literature * Thursday 14/10/04

THEN END OF
EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait...it looks like i have 7
subjects left but actually 5 coz my phy and chem is elective and my geo and
social studies is elective....That will be the day......WISH ME LUCK!!!! Miss
ya.....Hahn out

[LP] Sod OFF!!!

2004-09-29T04:23:00.000-07:00

Today is so rotten. In the morning i got
reprimanded by the bio teacher for coming late to school. Damn...It was all a
misunderstanding. Oh well. Then had english. Bana charged her cell phone in
school. Then the english teacher caught. One of the prefects got sacked because
she knew about it. What shit???!!! Sharon was so sad. She was even an EXCO
member which is like one of the highest ranks. I was like hoped you are okie coz
i guessed she was really hurt. Then Mdm Lee scolded us for like 1/2 hour. Damn
her. So what if we are the worse batch of express students??? Some of the rotten
things that happened today.

When I am down and, oh my
soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am
still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with
me.

Yesterday we played
captain ball with the technical students during gym. We usually played
floorball so its been along time since i played it. We started off real bad
and one of their girls asked me, "You guys never played this before". I
cannot believe she mocked us. Then i was like, "Erm i was in the
school team four years ago and since this school is real sucky, i
can't join coz there was no such cca. I'm alittle rusty.I beg you for
forgiveness.".They kept moking us throughout the game. then one of my team-mate
blocked a ball from their girl, then their classmates was like "Look
at her size.". I was so pissed. The girl who called my friend "fat" was damn fat
herself. I wanted to turn and say "At least we have the brains but not the
looks. Look at you, you have neither the looks nor the brain. Look at where you
will be ten years from now and where i'am then." but i refrained coz i
don't like having fights. We played fairly. We didn't bitch about them coz we
feel it was not right but they have gone overboard. I hate 'em. I
don't want to make a big issue about this but really if they can make it into a
big issue, why can't i? They are being so naive....argh...can stand 'em...I miss
my Mikasa netball. I bet the they don't know what the hell it
is......

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me
up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You
raise me up… To more than I can be.

I'm having my english exams tomorrow...wish
me luck....break a leg people who are taking exams tomorrow!!!! I'm OUTTA
HERE!!!

[LP] il a toujours appartenu à quelqu'un d'autre

2004-09-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

He had some trouble with himself
She was always there to help
him
He always belonged to someone else

Feeling
rather sleepy. Gonna get to sleep soon. I need to wake up early tomorrow. I
still have not do my damned maths homework and i need graph paper when i have
none. I'm so doomed tomorrow. Oh wells. The Maroon 5 song is stuck to my head.
The song's damned sweet.

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've
had you so many times but somehow
I want more

Had school,
went to Burger King for dinner with Mks. Went to tuition. Had this fruit pastry,
coated with dark chocolate. Went home and listenin to "She will be loved"
repeatedly for 2 hrs and 17min. Driving me nuts.

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the
pouring rain
Look for the guy with the broken smile
Ask him if he wants to
stay awhile
And he will be loved
He will be loved

And now i'm
eating.............................Maltesers.I love 'em. Eat two bags of it in
one week. Considered alot. Lalalalala...elmo's world. Getting nuts....cya when i
cya....bitching ard.....Hahn Outta Here

[LP] I Hate The Way I Don't Hate You

2004-09-26T06:33:00.000-07:00

Feeling***

I know i
haven't been online with all those exams coming. So here is the momoirs of the
three days of my life

Friday 24
August 2004

Reached home from school at around 2.30pm. Was suppose to follow
Sari to Heerens so i went home to bath and get changed. Before going i went
to Mks's house to play with her guitar. Played for awhile then went out of her
house at around 3.30pm. Took the train to Orchard. Went to Taka to get Banana's
birthday prezzie. Got a call from Sari telling me that she was going to be late
coz she was waiting for her sis to get back from school. Her sis was following
us. We knew her sis for sometime. She was an ex-student from our school and
became we quite close to her. She graduate last year. We went to to buy itallian
gelato. Belgian chocolate for her and dark chocolate. It was so chocolate-y.
Went to Heerens insearch of LJ's present. Sari was late. Met her at around 7pm.
Went to Far East and was dragged to every shop. Finished browsing, we went for a
late dinner at around 9pm. Went home. Reached around 11pm just in time for the
Red Hot Chili Peppers at Slake Castle.

When I am down
and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened
be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit
awhile with me.

[You raise me
up-Josh Groban]

Saturday
25 August 2004

I got guides
in the morning. Felt so damn tired. Mks wanted to go study somewhere. Went to
study at the airport *lol*. Really...June joined us. So then, she have go. So
wen went with her. She was suppose to go to church. Me and Mks went to Orchard
again. Went to Far East discovered a shop selling band shirts. Mks had to
practically pull me out of the shop. The name of the shop was 'Hot Shop'. Then i
was like is this a mini version of Hot Topic or what?whahhaa...Eyed a Famous
stars and stripes tee. Went to DC shop then asked for the DC shoe that Mike
Shinoda designed but they have not shipped it here yet but they have the famous
stars and stripes version. Went home, reached at around 9.30pm. Been
goin back home late now a days.

Every time I try
to fall in love,
They all want to know why I'm so broken.
Why I am I so
cold,
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared?
What am I afraid
of?

[Predictable-Good
Charlotte]

Today

Did
absolutely nothing. Feeling tired. Making Mks's birthday card. Hahha.Its huge.
Went to eat lunch with my family. Then my dad was saying something about the
function at his work and we came across the piano issue. Then i was like, no its
keyboard. Then he said, "You think you like Linkin Park you know everything.
Even instuments." I was so damn pissed and told him off. Said somethin like
this, "Hell yeah i know what instuments are. I know alittle guitar tunes and I'm
so playin the bass. Doesn't mean i like Linkin Park i don't know anything. In
fact i doubt you know anythin about me except the fact that i like Linkin Park."
I was so insulted. He doesnt know a shit about me and there he go judging me.
Anyway, i wanna tell you guys the dream i dreamed last night. It goes like
this:

There was
this award ceremony in my school. The soccer players from my class were wearing
their orange jerseys. the goalie was wearing his blue jersey. Then out of a
sudden, guy R got angry which was wierd coz in real life he rarely gets
angry. Then guy A, who was the goalie got angry because of what guy R did. So i
went to Guy R and consoled him since i "thought" i had a crush
on him. But he wouldn't listen so from that point i hated him and i was surprise
he had a bad temper. Then i went to Guy A and consoled him. I was hugging him
and cheering him with this and that and i was laying my head on his shoulders
since he has incredible muscles. He cooled down. Then we were hugging and Guy R
with a sulky and angry look, walked pass with a jersey he changed into
which has my full name where the player's name suppose to be. I was shocked and
somehow, i woke up.

**End of
dream**

Oh man..this
is so wierd. Tell me what it means. Im so clueless. All of the people in my
dream are really in my life and i can still feel
the aftershock.People tell me what this means!!!!!

[LP] w a t c h m e c r y

2004-09-23T09:26:00.000-07:00

Don't ask me
where the D:A:R:L comes from. Honestly, i have no idea. Those letters formed on
my head so i wrote it down. I was so tired from the soccer match i went to.
Studying for my chem test during the game. My "mastermind"
was all soaked with mud. Ergh like they were playin rugby. Oh well, they won 7-3
againts kid a year older then them...Yeah...Then went home with RJ and was
talking about that stupid lit test we had to do in school. He was like bouncing
the damn ball around and it wad really irritating. I reached home at around 8.30pm discovered that my folks weren't at home
except my damned sissy. Talked to Steve and Amir for a while. I was consoling
someone again...Yeah that's practically what i did today.

School was boring as always. Had assembly
and had this "Sexually Transmitted Diesease" talk. It was gross and telling us
not to do sex till we are like married. Whatever. I couldn't be bothered. I
wouldn't do it now but then again, i wouldn't want to die a virgin
LMFAO....

Maybe following sari to
Heerens tomorrow to get some of my friend's birthday gift. Oh yeah, someone whom
shall _not be
named sent me a good night text message. There was a little bear and the message
goes like this.

"Just wanna give you a
super extra squeezy squishy nuzzle snuggle huggle Knock-you-down Blow-you-over
smoochy sloppy hug...Goodnight (",)"

Wasn't that cute?...whahahahah...And that is
for all of you from me

[LP] w a t c h m e c r y

2004-09-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

Don't ask me
where the D:A:R:L comes from. Honestly, i have no idea. Those letters formed on
my head so i wrote it down. I was so tired from the soccer match i went to.
Studying for my chem test during the game. My "mastermind"
was all soaked with mud. Ergh like theya re playin rugby. Oh well, they won 7-3
againts kid a year older then them...Yeah...Then went home with RJ and was
talking about that stupid lit test we had to do in school. He was like bouncing
the damn ball around and it wad really irritating. I reached home at around 8.30pm discovered that my folks weren't at home
except my damned sissy. Talked to Steve and Amir for a while. I was consoling
someone again...Yeah that's practically what i did yeaterday.

"Just wanna give you a
super extra squeezy squishy nuzzle snuggle huggle Knock-you-down Blow-you-over
smoochy sloppy hug...Goodnight (",)"

Wasn't that cute?...whahahahah...And that is
for all of you from me

[LP] All is Well

2004-09-22T05:44:00.000-07:00

To all 'Preppies'

"You
cannot rely on outward appearance to reveal to you who is Goth and who is not.
You must not base your opinions and assumptions about Goths on what you hear in
the media or how Goths are portrayed in movies, books, etc. "

Today I was PUNK'D by Steve & Shida and
they we PUNK'D by ATG and Me. It was hilarious. I felt the most guilty of all. I
have to study for moi exams so i'll be only writing short entries like
this...sorry guys.....i try to write more....

[LP] Goths don't cry

2004-09-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

Im so -DEPRESSED- so i guess there will be no entry for today...Oh ya, happy birthday shida.

Feeling->

[LP] From my nightmare

2004-09-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

Hello there...Erm...Feeling tired. Writin this when i'm
suppose to study for my test. Oh shucks. I came late and missed someone. Ergh!!!
Tomorrow's Mks's birthday and today is lil_hotsy's birthday...sooo...

Happy 15th BIRTHDAY Ezza!!!!!

Happy early 15th BIRTHDAY
MKS!!!!!!!!

Compo and
social studies test suck big time... We had two periods free today and we were
all doing nothin. Then me and Mks heard this bunch of PREPS saying "Goths are
lame." I fired up but didn't say anything. They are just dumb. They are not
worth my time. They insulted us. They go around looking pretty when in actual
fact they are not. Erghhh...listenin The Reason and hoping that some guy will
sing me that song. A guy with a nice voice anyway. The song is so sweet. I'm
still feeling pissed and has no idea what to do to cheer myself up. Maybe a
regular dosage of Meteora?whahahaha....

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't
do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to
you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to
know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason
to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt
you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you
through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who
catches all your tears
That’s why i need you to hear

I've found a
reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and
the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do
those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you
to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A
reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to
show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the
reason is you

[LP] From my nightmare

2004-09-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

Happy 15th BIRTHDAY Ezza!!!!!

Happy early 15th BIRTHDAY
MKS!!!!!!!!

I got that SHIRT!!!!!

[LP] Fill in the title

2004-09-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hey
there...Annah, i mean Jade has got a new diary and so does Dis or Amanda.I had
guides today. My exams are coming in two weeks so I went to the library with
June and Mks. After that went to get dinner at Mos Burger. Had fish burger and
fries. Man, the fries were huge. Then went to get those decorated photos...Neo
print...Was wearing mt Hybrid Theory tee and was wearing it proud. Whahaha...
reached home around 8.45pm and no one was at home. Found out that my sis is
admitted to the hospital. Dunno what time they will be back.

Feeling so
bland. So...so...so..."nothing"...Its like i have no feelings now. So worried
about my sis. Arggghh....Always took her for granted but she really is a
brat.

Yesterday

Erm...I
didn't went to school yesterday. Found out that two of my other friend was also
absent.The night before conference on the phone with Stephen and Amir. Was bored
and talking to two guys does not help coz they kept talkin about hot girls.
Erghh...Watched LP live in Texas last night. Lp is the only band that their
concert goes on the national tv so that everyone can watch. But too bad they cut
the song "With you" if i'm not wrong. Sha, a girl who likes hip-hop watched it
for no reason and said that she find Mr Hahn and "Linkin Park's drummer" cute.
Obviously she doesn't know Rob's name. lol...

Just got
this email

With a bad
sound, Linkin Parkin moved 70
thousand in Sao Paulo
September 15, 2004

Redação
Terra TV
September 12

Translated by Danielle

About 70 thousand people were inside the
Morumbi stadium in Sao
Paulo to see Linkin Park
play in Brazil last night. Their spirit came to the

crowd, despite the bad sound that echoed from
the stadium. Even with
this problem, it was difficult
to find someone who was not satisfied with
their
performance at the end of the show.

The Linkin Park show
started on time, at 10pm.
The show in Sao Paulo the only in latin America

ended the two year tour that the band started after
the release of their
second album, Meteora.

All the huge success of Linkin Park appeared on

stage. During their quick show, that didn't take
more than 90 minutes,
the group, headed by
Chester Bennington and Mike Shinoda, mixed
well the
success of Hybrid Theory and Meteora.

Bennington and Shinoda played
guitars to help
the heavy riffs made by Brad Delson and by
Joseph Hahn.
To complete the team, Phoenix and
Rob Bourdon hold the strength of the
group.

But not even the bad sound could spoil the Linkin
Park party.
Right in the beginning of the show,
Lying From You and Papercut were signs
that the
night would be heavy. The promise to do a show
with “110% of
energy” and “rock the stadium”,
made by the band on Friday, during the
interview,
were made seriously.

The show went ahead with Numb,
Somewhere I
Belong, Faint and Crawling. Then Shinoda started
to play
keyboard to do a duet with Bennington.
Breaking the Habit got a new
introduction, light,
and full of harmony.

In the loudspeakers, a
variation of sounds
distorted the Linkin Park music. With this defect,

the 70 thousand people helped the band by
singing all the songs except
one, a heavy cover of
Wish by Nine Ince Nails. The crowd, mostly teens,

showed that they were not familiar with Trent
Reznor.

But one
song is still missing from the set list. The
fans shouted for more encore
and the band didn't
disappoint and ended the show with One Step
Closer,
a track from their first album.

It's time to say goodbye, Chester
Bennington and
his bandmates thanked the huge crowd, declared
their love
and said that "this is the biggest show of
our career". Who cares about the
bad sound.

Thats all
for today...Until then, Hahn Out...

Did this
dumb thing just now...

[LP]New New New

2004-09-15T06:39:00.000-07:00

[Ticking]9.45pm

[Clad in]tee

[Eating]gg mint cookies

[Drinking] Water...too much chocolate

[Rocking to] The sound of the tv

[Quote of the Day] Nothin

Well well well...Opendiary.com isn't working that well and i have to blog my stuff here. Man, i miss Od and alot of my entries from there are gone. New blog. Just making this thing not known for now. Well maybe no one knows now. Maybe i tell them later. Eurgh...why does some people get all they want? Be popular and stuff. Lucky them. Not the popular part. Alway been an isolated wierdo and still is. Can't be helped that i'm a goth. Until Then, Hahn out...

Living•A•Lie

My eyes looking at you....

And if i breathe, knowing that you won't care.

That is only used for thinking.

Catch Me

[LP] What a year?!

[LP] Happy BBB Day

[LP]I've got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one

[LP] Lost It All

[LP] For one last time, make some noise...

[LP] Acoooostick *lol*

[LP] And that Samick bass is all mine...

[LP] You are the victims of your own addictions

[LP] remember the times, together we swore

[LP] And i don't love you anymore.I'am....

[LP] Bow down and stare in wonder...

[LP] Everybody's fool

[LP] What the f*ck do i have to say?

[LP]A small confession, I think I'm starting to lose it...

[LP] When you feel down. i feel...

[LP] I was forced to run, with you mocking me

[LP] "Joe, do you need all those straws?!"

[LP] Tattoos of Memories

[LP] Swamped- Lacuna Coil

[LP] Then Face All This Pain Here All Alone

[LP] I create my own madness

[LP] Who knows my life was supoose to be that instead?

[LP] The World is Cold

[LP] Sod OFF!!!

[LP] il a toujours appartenu à quelqu'un d'autre

[LP] I Hate The Way I Don't Hate You

[LP] w a t c h m e c r y

[LP] w a t c h m e c r y

[LP] All is Well

[LP] Goths don't cry

[LP] From my nightmare

[LP] From my nightmare

[LP] Fill in the title

[LP]New New New

[LP] Acoooostick lol